Sunday funday…

Yesterday morning was gorgeous. Crisp, cool, blue skies and bright sunshine. The weather was perfect, even though I love summertime.

We had coffee and tea on our front porch and enjoyed the warm sunshine we were bathed in. It was a healing kind of gentle sunshine, without the heat and humidity that had kept me indoors since I had breathing issues in those conditions.

We were able to cook our breakfast outside. Yay! I prepped all the items we needed, and Marty was going to do the cooking. I set the outdoor table with pretty purple springtime cloth napkins with hydrangeas.

Marty is a good short-order cook and has done it for real. Breakfast was ready in a snap since the flat-top griddle was piping hot.

The menu…Fluffy gf pancakes with strawberry whipped cream, bacon, over-easy eggs, bacon, and hashbrowns finished with green onions.

It was a beautiful, relaxing setting with soft jazz playing in the background. I called Martin from across the street and asked him to join us, and he did! I quickly set another place setting before he walked over.

No Nelly! Off! Hot!

It felt like we were dining in a cute spot with good food and a great atmosphere. Our breakfast was delicious; the hashbrowns were my favorite part of the meal, like any other good Irishman.

After breakfast, I went in to get ready for Barbie, and it was cool enough to blow out my hair and straighten it! This is still a big deal since I am still a Jersey girl through and through. My scalp and hair have been damp all summer; having dry hair was delightful.

I wore pink, of course; I don’t always wear only black anymore. When I came down before I left for the movie, Marty told me I looked good in pink; it did look surprisingly good on me.

I went to see Barbie with my friends David and Arthur from next door at the Deming House. The guys are from DC and purchased their Vermont home a few short years ago.

The good news is they are now living full-time in Vermont since they have retired (well, sort of for David.) We hit it off right away; we love having them as friends and neighbors.

Weirdly enough, after the guys purchased the Deming House, Arthur did a little genealogy and found out the Demings in his lineage were related to the Demings of Arlington, VT! How can that even be, except it was meant to be?

We had to wait 30 minutes for the movie to start since the projector had an issue. While we waited, we talked about what cartoons we watched and the toys we played with when we were little.

I know when I was a kid, I watched a shit ton of tv. David and Arthur did, too; I guess everyone did back then.

I remember running to get a quick bowl of sugar-laden cereal or a Poptart and sitting “too close to the tv,” which would ruin my eyes, especially after staring at the small screen for hours in an Indian leg position or on my back.

We all loved Scobby-doo the best, with a lot of runners-up. For toys, I told them how much I loved my Barbies and played with them until I was 12 or 13.

David and Arthur both played with GI Joes; I am pretty sure David said sometimes he got to play with a friend’s sister’s Barbies. He was pretty knowledgeable about the different Barbies and their names.

Before playing with Barbies, I played with baby dolls and took one of them everywhere. I took care of it until I got tired of the baby, and it landed face down on the car floor. Good thing my mothering skills improved when I had Noah.

I loved those small bottles with the disappearing milk or orange juice. Orange juice for babies? I never second-guessed it back then.

The Barbie movie was really good. It was better than I expected, with many entertaining and funny scenes. We all liked it.

It was a great way to spend my day with people I love having in my small circle of friends, which took my mind off my pulmonary appointment the following day.

Last night, Marty spotted a vast bird way up on a branch of a black locust tree before sunset. We weren’t sure what kind of bird it was, so Marty shared a photo with a group on Facebook called “Happening in Arlington.” Everyone agreed it was an osprey.

An osprey is a type of hawk that is also called a fish hawk since fish makes up this type of hawk’s primary diet. They are found near large bodies of water such as Lake Champlain, lake memphremagog, and the Connecticut River.

The more I thought about it, even though other people have seen other osprey in our area, I knew this was a direct message from my power animal Hawk. He shows up whenever I need him. Marty and I took this as a good sign that put me at ease a bit.

I just returned from my appointment at Dartmouth Hitchcock and am happy to tell you I do not have pulmonary fibrosis. Thank God! I do have interstitial lung disease, but with a game plan in place to monitor it and accepting I will have some breathing issues for the rest of my life, I am ok with it.

Nelly is growing up…

Nelly is now 8 1/2 months and is the cutest little sweetheart of a dog. Marty and I feel like the luckiest people since we have the perfect little puppy for us.

Don’t get me wrong, Nelly is still a mischievous little girl and gets herself into trouble often.

The things that she does is hysterical. She loves to carry things from the inside out and outside in. Everything is fair game to her so we had to fix that.

Our house and yard are now super puppy proofed, neat, and organized to keep her out of trouble.

Like all frenchies, they are bred to be companion dogs which go through separation anxiety when their owners are out of the house.

We chose a frenchie not only because they are cute, but I wanted a companion pup. We take her with us whenever we go out for longer than an hour.

When getting a frenchie you have to know and understand they cannot be left alone for more than 3 hours. They suffer from serious separation anxiety.

Nelly loves going places with us. She never makes a peep in the backseat she is harnessed into. She falls asleep as soon as the truck starts to drive.

She never makes a fuss even if we have to get in and out of the truck a lot. She loves people, riding in a shopping cart and she goes crazy over kids.

We weighted Nelly this week and she is 19 lbs. Her frame is still small compared to other female frenchies. She is almost full grown.

Her breeding color is lilac, fawn, and platinum which have blue eyes and a smaller stature. I have looked at other female frenchies in the above breeding color and they are so similar.

Nelly adores Klaus and vice versa. They love playing and roughhousing. It’s amazing how gentle Klaus is with her especially when playing tug of war with a toy. He lets her win sometimes.

These two love to lay next to each other, something he never did with Otto; they tolerated each other at best.

She has turned Klaus into a gentle giant who by the way has slimmed down to 81 lbs from her keeping him so active. He was in the 90s at some point.

Watching the sunrise with me.

Marty and I look forward to taking Nelly up to bed with us each night. She snuggles in with her head next to ours and sleeps under the covers up to her chin, just like a human.

We wake up every day in that same position after spending the night listening to her snore and smelling the notorious frenchie farts. Lol.

Nelly was the right dog for me at the right time. She is there for me if I am stressed, frustrated, or sad. She really is an emotional support dog when I need her to be.

I finally have my appointment with a pulmonary specialist at Dartmouth Hitchcock on Monday.

I will have a cat scan and a pulmonary function test before my appointment with Dr. Stewart. I am nervous about this appointment.

This summer I am realizing living with lung disease is no joke. The humidity and wildfire smoke have significantly affected me more than the average person. It’s scary actually.

Some days I feel like a champ and others, like today, I’m inside our air-conditioned home still heavy-chested from the humidity. it makes me tired.

We sold our solo stove fire pit since I can’t breathe in any kind of smoke anymore. Since we missed having “campfires” we got a gas one with the money from the old one.

I keep trying to give away my worries about this pulmonary appointment, but it’s been hard to do. I’ve had quite a few anxiety attacks out of nowhere so I know this is deeply embedded inside of me.

Either way the appointment goes, I know I’ll have to deal with it and keep learning to live my life accordingly. It’s weird I am hoping I “just” have lung disease and not anything worse.

Right now, while I am writing this post, I’m resting on the couch with Nelly and boy, is she is letting them rip. 😂

Have a good night guys. I tried out a new recipe earlier today, I’ll let you know what it is and how it came out.

All is well…

Just an update, after a few brilliant thunderstorms last night, nothing flooded and it has stopped raining. Yay!

During the storms, we sat on the front porch since we both love thunderstorms. Neither of the dogs are afraid of them like poor Otto was.

I was sipping a cocktail when our friend Martin walked over to join us. It was beautiful out with a sunset that was a gorgeous shade of orange pink.

From a distance we could hear thunder and see lightening in the dark sky. The air was cool and refreshing after a swelteringly hot day.

Right now, we are enjoying coffee and tea on the front porch in the sunshine for a bit before we start production, banking and deliveries. Klaus and Nelly are loving it as much as we are.

Thanks for your positive thought and prayers. I rarely ask for such a thing but felt I needed to yesterday.

I am writing this on my phone so I apologize for any grammar mistakes. Happy Friday and seize the day! ☀️

Please…

I haven’t had a panic attack for months but when Marty said he needed to make a delivery over Bromley Mountain to a restaurant called Johnny Seesaws over with early. I could feel my anxiety building.

Arlington got very lucky with the last devastating rainfall that destroyed towns 25 minutes away leaving them underwater.

During the storm a few days ago, everyone held their breaths hoping this was not going to be another “Irene,” a storm from a few years ago devastating our area.

I looked at the forecast for the next 24 hours and it’s looks very scary again since water in rivers and streams are already very high.

I just got over the panic attack and while writing this short post.

Please say a little prayer for Vermont today who has been in national news earlier this week regarding the devastation that occurred.

Thanks.

Waldorf Chicken Salad…

I was convinced to become the Arlington School District’s food service director back in 2005.

I say convinced because others thought I’d be good at it. I never had such a position before, I never even applied for the job. Boom, it happened in a flash.

I said yes because I saw the position as an opportunity to make a difference in our schools and town. I became excited and very nervous.

I wanted to change the school lunch program in a few different ways. I wanted to offer three choices of food to anyone getting lunch; whether they were categorized as free, reduced and full price.

I took away all ala carte items that only kids with money could purchase leaving the free and reduced kids to only have one choice and everyone knew they were poor. Not on my watch.

I also took away desserts every day and saved them for special occasions like it was back in the old days.

I watched too many kids before I took over get the lunch just for the dessert and dumped the rest of the tray.

I wanted to offer a hot lunch, a sandwich, wrap, or panini, and a salad. I made sure that there was something for all kinds of eaters; even the picky ones.

I also wanted to introduce the kids to new and unfamiliar foods to them. I gave them small try-me cups to taste what I was serving, even to the brown baggers who seemed to like that.

Long before farm-to-school lunch in the Northeast, I worked with a local farmer and purchased rejected fruits and vegetables which couldn’t be sold due to their looks.

We turned those ugly ducklings into delicious food and baked goods. Yes, it was more work, but most of my employees were high school students and loved working with me.

I taught the kids what seasonal eating was. When they begged for watermelon in January I told them it was citrus season and offered them many varieties which I could afford through a fresh fruit and veggie grant.

Lastly, I wanted the teachers and staff to order lunch from us. I held events that invited parents and grandparents to the elementary school to eat with their children.

Parents would tell me on Parents Night at a school how they loved hearing about what their child tried for lunch.

Many parents told me they had no idea themselves what a “Three cheese focaccia melt with pesto and tomatoes”’ was but their kid loved it! This made me very happy!

One of the most popular salads was the Waldorf Chicken Salad on greens and a breadstick. Not something you would expect from elementary, middle, and high school students. Teachers adored it too.

When the little ones would ask me what a Waldorf salad was I would explain it like this.

“A long time ago there was a very fancy hotel in New York City called the Waldorf Astoria.”

“Back in 1893, a man named Oscar came up with a new salad for their fancy schmancy restaurant.”

Their eyes got big when I told them theatrically, “The salad you are having tomorrow is the same one that was served to the fancy people eating in the fancy restaurant who were staying at the fancy hotel.”

One boy asked if it was the same salad and if it would be ok to eat, meaning it was from 1893. I told him the one I make is exactly the same but freshly made. He looked relieved.

Red grapes and celery in this version.

Next, I told the kids what was in the salad. The salad had chunks of apples and grapes, which I already know they loved.

I couldn’t add walnuts to the salad due to the no nuts policy. I omitted telling them about the celery, it only takes one little thing to make a child turn their nose up to something.

The salad also had chicken for the needed protein and a special dressing. They nodded their heads and said they would sign up for it the next day. Yay!

Green grapes and sugared walnuts in this version.

Whenever I make Waldorf salad with or without chicken, I think of how lucky I was to feed those kids new and exciting food.

Now those kids are adults and parents. Whenever I see them they tell me how they missed my cooking. ☺️

What an awesome thing to be able to open their eyes to trying new things they never wouldn’t have as an opportunity to.

I wonder if they are doing that with their own kids?

Waldorf Chicken Salad…

I was convinced to become the Arlington School District’s food service director back in 2005.

I say convinced because others thought I’d be good at it. I never had such a position before it even applied for the job. Boom, it happened in a flash.

I said yes because I saw the position as an opportunity to make a difference in our schools and town. I became excited and very nervous.

I wanted to change the school lunch program in a few different ways. I wanted to offer three choices of food to anyone getting lunch; whether they were categorized as free, reduced and full price.

I took away all ala carte items that only kids with money could purchase leaving the free and reduced kids to only have one choice and everyone knew they were poor. Not on my watch.

I also took away desserts every day and saved them for special occasions like it was back in the old days.

I watched too many kids before I took over get the lunch just for the dessert and dumped the rest of the tray.

I wanted to offer a hot lunch, a sandwich, wrap, or panini, and a salad. I made sure that there was something for all kinds of eaters; even the picky ones.

I also wanted to introduce the kids to new and unfamiliar foods to them. I gave them small try-me cups to taste what I was serving, even to the brown baggers who seemed to like that.

Long before farm-to-school lunch in the Northeast, I worked with a local farmer and purchased rejected fruits and vegetables which couldn’t be sold due to their looks.

We turned those ugly ducklings into delicious food and baked goods. Yes, it was more work, but most of my employees were high school students and loved working with me.

I taught the kids what seasonal eating was. When they begged for watermelon in January I told them it was citrus season and offered them many varieties which I could afford through a fresh fruit and veggie grant.

Lastly, I wanted the teachers and staff to order lunch from us. I held events that invited parents and grandparents to the elementary school to eat with their children.

Parents would tell me on Parents Night at a school how they loved hearing about what their child tried for lunch.

Many parents told me they had no idea themselves what a “Three cheese focaccia melt with pesto and tomatoes”’ was but their kid loved it! This made me very happy!

One of the most popular salads was the Waldorf Chicken Salad on greens and a breadstick. Not something you would expect from elementary, middle, and high school students. Teachers adored it too.

When the little ones would ask me what a Waldorf salad was I would explain it like this.

“A long time ago there was a very fancy hotel in New York City called the Waldorf Astoria.”

“Back in 1893, a man named Oscar came up with a new salad for their fancy schmancy restaurant.”

Their eyes got big when I told them theatrically, “The salad you are having tomorrow is the same one that was served to the fancy people eating in the fancy restaurant who were staying at the fancy hotel.”

One boy asked if it was the same salad and if it would be ok to eat, meaning it was from 1893. I told him the one I make is exactly the same but freshly made. He looked relieved.

Red grapes and celery in this version.

Next, I told the kids what was in the salad. The salad had chunks of apples and grapes, which I already know they loved.

I couldn’t add walnuts to the salad due to the no nuts policy. I omitted telling them about the celery, it only takes one little thing to make a child turn their nose up to something.

The salad also had chicken for the needed protein and a special dressing. They nodded their heads and said they would sign up for it the next day. Yay!

Green grapes and sugared walnuts in this version.

Whenever I make Waldorf salad with or without chicken, I think of how lucky I was to feed those kids new and exciting food.

Now those kids are adults and parents. Whenever I see them they tell me how they missed my cooking. ☺️

What an awesome thing to be able to open their eyes to trying new things they never wouldn’t have as an opportunity to.

I wonder if they are doing that with their own kids?

Putting on my jewels…

Photo taken by Jenni the librarian at the North Bennington Library.

I was a social butterfly since last Friday night along with my sister Jennifer visiting. We had people over and went to people’s places.

Jen and I spent some wonderful sister time together, floating around the pool, cooking together, and watching girl tv.

Yesterday, Jen left early to head back to NJ to beat the traffic and did. We were done with production before noon which was fabulous.

After production, I felt exhausted, I had a great time with lots of fun, but I was beat. The heat didn’t help either.

I rested in our air-conditioned bedroom with Nelly until it was time to start getting ready for our library gig.

Unlike the parade gig, this time I was wearing my new white lace choli and polka-dot coin bra I made in early June.

The costuming I chose was simple; black, white, and purple. I did my hair in a flamenco style with only 2 flowers. My make-up was more subdued than the Pride Parade.

This was the look I envisioned when I made my polka-dot bra. Getting ready went smoothly and quickly. I was happy with how everything came out.

When I got to our dance space where we were meeting before the gig, I realized I was very mellow. I wasn’t in a talkative mood since I talked my fucking head off for days. Lol.

I felt the same way while driving over to the North Bennington Library and when I got there.

I knew it was part of my job as the dancer’s teacher to be “Julz.” I had to slip into my fun, energetic, and confident self. Julz the performer, the professional, and the leader.

While everyone was outside hanging out waiting to dance, I told Kathleen I needed to go inside and put on my “jewels.” She knew what I meant.

I went back inside the library and grounded myself. I closed my eyes and visualized myself putting on my “jewels” which is pulling my shit together, getting rid of any tired or negative energy.

I opened my eyes and popped into Julz, the belly dancer. I walked outside and announced to the dancers, “Ok guys, let’s get ready to have a fun show, that’s what we are here for. Let’s do it!”

I could see everyone smile and their eyes told me they were relieved to have their upbeat Julz back. I think Kathleen winked at me.

Next thing I knew, I started the music, we all locked into each others energy while I lead a gratitude dance facing each other in a circle.

We performed the best we could on a lawn with a slope and a hole in the ground. The most important thing was we had a ton of fun.

Kathleen and I performed our first public duet in front of an audience since June 2018. Thanks, covid.

Our duet was special and meant a lot to the both of us. We danced with the love we have for one and other as dance sisters. After all, we’ve been dancing together for 20 years.

After our two sets, we did a mini-lesson and invited the audience members to come up and dance with us. I put on music and started calling out what we were doing while everyone followed.

Quite a few people, men and women got up to give it a try, including my friend David. There was no pressure to do anything right except having fun.

We were all hot and sweaty since it was still in the 80s. We had that awesome post-gig buzz on again. I asked my friend and student Maria if she had fun and she said she did.

Last year, Maria was terrified of dancing, but has gotten over it. I said to Kathleen, “Get over here and give me a big, hot, and sweaty hug.” She threw herself at me and we cracked up.

The ride home was beautiful with the sun now gentle after a burning hot, sunny day. I drove with the air on and my window open.

I felt so good. I thanked to my body for allowing myself to still be able to dance after a rocky and sick period this winter.

I thanked the heavens that I get to teach and dance with a wonderful group of women, my dance sisters. ❤️

From high to low…

Photo credit Kat Farnham

This week has gotten away from me. I intended to write about the Pride event and gig right away while I still felt that post-gig high. I felt great and had no trouble breathing during the performance like I did in the past. The day turned out so well, and I was ecstatic.

Photo credit Kat Farnham

On Monday, the high humidity and wildfire smoke had different plans for me. Without boring you with the details of an emotionally unstable person with serious diseases, I was physically and mentally punched in the stomach.

I couldn’t breathe again and had trouble going up the stairs needing to stop mid-way. I knew my lung disease would affect my life; I just wasn’t ready for how bad I would feel again.

During belly dance class and rehearsal for another gig that we have on Wednesday night at the North Bennington at 7:30 pm. I couldn’t breathe whenever I tried to dance to fast songs.

Apparently, oxygen wasn’t getting to my muscles properly, causing me to be exhausted and had to stop dancing. “Oh, so this is how it’s going to be?” I kept asking myself.

At the end of rehearsal, I apologized to everyone for having my head in the clouds and being unable to dance. They were extremely supportive and kind.

As dance sisters, we are always there for each other in times of crisis and bad days. We have a bond that most people will never experience.

The six of us are truly dance sisters, and I love each of them. In the morning, everyone sent me a message asking how I felt. How lucky are we?

I have to stay inside, which is ok. We have the air conditioning on because Nelly and Klaus can’t go outside either.

Nelly started to overheat earlier in the day because she was sunbathing. I wrapped her up in a cold, wet towel.

These types of dogs are prone to overheating and having breathing issues due to the structure of their faces.

We knew this when we got them and have to keep a close eye on them when it’s hot out. It only takes Nelly less than 5 minutes to overheat.

It’s scary; I’m glad I found her on the deck in time. She usually goes under a tree or the table for shade, but she must have dozed off. It’s really like having a baby again.

All photos were taken by Jon Katz

Here is a photo dump of some of the photos from the parade and performance. Thank you to Jon Katz and Kat Farnham for taking beautiful photos of us while we walked in the parade or danced.

Photo credits to Maria Wulf and Emily Gold

We have a busy weekend coming up. We have a birthday party on Saturday night, and my sister Jennifer is coming on Sunday for a few days.

Photo credit Christopher Wright

We plan to do a lot of cooking and talking as usual. We will be busy hosting a dinner party and a good old-fashioned cookout on Tuesday. We haven’t seen each other since the last Fourth of July; I am excited to spend time together.

Enjoy your holiday weekend, guys. Be safe, and Happy Friday! 😀🇺🇸 🍔 🌭 🍉 🎆

A quiet morning…

Since Nelly reset my body clock, I go to bed early and wake up early which I am really enjoying. My insomnia is a thing of the past thank goodness.

This morning, Klaus asked me to to go on the front porch with him. It’s a little chilly but the sunshine is warm.

It’s quiet in Arlington with only the sounds of different birds, hawks and woodpeckers. No cars have driven by for minutes at a time.

Instead of doings things in the house, I decided to do nothing but sit with Klaus and enjoy his company and the beautiful morning.

I’ve really changed my friends. Enjoy all the beautiful moments in your lives, all the little things can wait.

Back in the garden…

After my nervous breakdown in April and my visit to the lower world with Hawk, I was shown all the beautiful things in my life. Right now, right here. After that, I started looking at everything that brings me joy and what does not. I started getting rid of stuff that didn’t bring me joy.

The first thing that came to mind was the joy of gardening. There are plenty of reasons why I stopped gardening; besides not having enough time, I hated kneeling and weeding constantly. The weeds seemed to grow back before I was done. I also didn’t like black flies buzzing around my head and face.

Back then, we planted a culinary garden with different sections. There was an Italian section with Roma tomatoes, Italian parsley, eggplant, and basil. The Mexican garden had other tomatoes for salsa, cilantro, and peppers. The Asian garden had scallions, Thai basil, peppers, and Japanese eggplant, to name just a few.

It was fun growing a culinary garden and planning what I would make with what we produced. When I thought about what I loved about gardening was that concept. When planning our garden in our raised beds, we kept it simple and grew an Italian kitchen garden.

After the septic system catastrophe, we ended up with a new retaining wall and slate terrace, which came out fantastic. This was the silver lining of a costly project that had to be done immediately. I didn’t freak out when we realized what needed to be done. I was looking ahead at the outcome.

Since I went on that journey with Hawk in April, I have been tested repeatedly. So much so that it makes me laugh. I can get over situations quickly, giving the worries or anxiety away and focusing on the now. I see hawks hovering over our house or while I am driving. Hawk, my power animal, is very powerful, which I am grateful for.

I’ve tried to live in the now for years; I have statues of Buddha everywhere to remind me. Now, instead of reminders, I give thanks and gratitude to Buddha when I see them. I bought a Buddha statue for our new garden that greets us when we enter the terrace garden.

Tonight, before I went out to water the garden, flowers, and herbs, I remembered my favorite part of the day was watering the garden with a cold glass of white wine or a summery cocktail like a gin and tonic with a lime.

That’s exactly what I did while dinner was in the oven and the sun was just right. I loved padding around barefoot on the slate pieces of the terrace that were still warm from the afternoon sun. I was caught up in the moment and realized this was one of my favorite joys!