Work hard, play hard…

Nelly’s favorite baby.

Nelly has brought us all so much joy. Even with the shitty ass septic debacle, she has made us smile and laugh continuously.

For the record, the septic system was completed yesterday afternoon. They are putting up a new retaining wall today, then the rest is beautification. I’m excited about that part and can envision what it will look like.

After seeing my friend Kat at bellydance last night, she asked how Nelly was since I haven’t posted anything new about her.

I plan to post about her “growing up” weekly. A weekly dose of cuteness. Everyone can use a smile after all.

Nelly has mastered the sit command and we are working on the down command this week. I’ve been training Klaus along with Nelly.

I never taught him to shake before, which he learned after just one time. Yes, you can teach old dogs new tricks!

Production will be shut down until at least Monday, I’ll be using that time to train the pups and try out a couple of new springtime vegetarian dishes.

As always, I’ll let you know how the dishes come out and share the recipes with you if they are good. It feels so good being back in my kitchen again!

At dance last night, I was able to dance slow and fast, and teaching was so much fun for me. After taking a two-month medical break, I am reenergized, making my classes new and fresh. Yip!

Have a great day, guys. We have a beautiful day today after two cold, rainy, raw, nasty ass days of weather. Enjoy! ☀️

*** I am getting better at writing blog posts from my phone, allowing me to blog anywhere.

I’m just tired…

I just wrote today about our string of bad luck, loss and stress since November. That was before we got the news…the clay pipe from the house to the septic system is gone.

We started to get water in our basement a couple of weeks ago but thought it was ground water. Then it got worse and worse.

Marty checked if it was coming from the washer, it wasn’t. Today, he looked in a crawl space where the septic system starts and discovered 3 feet of the clay pipe gone.

There are lots of details but this where we are are at 7:51 pm. We have no septic, meaning we can’t use any water except in buckets and dumping them outside. No toilets is a big one or two I should say.

Marty met with a local guy who does this type of work and found out a new pipeline needs to be installed. Easy? Never for us.

We have to have a 190 year old retaining wall taken down so the machinery can dig the new line. A new wall will need to be installed.

Our outdoor walk-in refrigerator needs to be moved. A new tank will have to be installed since the old piping is under part of our production kitchen and there is no way to get to it without destroying the buildings.

We won’t have water for the next 24-48 hours. The inside of our house sells like it is the septic system. It’s bad, very bad.

We can’t go into production until the septic system is repaired. By the way, we had to put a new septic system in two weeks after we bought our house in 2004, that didn’t include the clay piping.

Restaurants will have to 86 our spätzle on their menus and replace it with another starch. Stores will have to wait. Customers will have to wait which means no sales.

We will have a total fucking mess after the new septic is installed. The person who is doing the job will then start putting everything back together. It will look good when it’s all over, but still what the actual fuck!

At this point I am done. Marty is done too. I thought we were good people who constantly try to help others, but get the short end of the stick every time.

We are lucky we have neighbors who graciously offered their restrooms and showers which we will have to take them up on since it’s a very shitty situation.

I’m not editing this post, it is what it is. I’ll keep you posted. ~julz

Paris Syndrome…

During my illness, I watched a lot of Youtube videos. There is not much more you can do when you are too sick to do anything else, and I didn’t want to drown myself in a sea of negativity scrolling through my social media newsfeeds. Smart right?

One day I stumbled upon a Youtube channel called “Ame, in a van.” Ame’s videos are 10-15 minutes long, and I liked her concept of spending two years building her travel van. She is a young woman in her 20s traveling alone through Europe.

Her parents did the same thing, sold their home and all their belongings, building their van, just larger. They, too, have a Youtube channel of their own which is successful like Ame’s.

I watched Ame’s video on Paris and was highly disappointed and disgusted by what I saw in the city of lights. The city that has been my lifelong destination to visit one day.

The place I dreamt about since reading the children’s books, Madeline. I’ve written about Madeline before on my blog. I still love those books!

So many people! This is last summer in high season, but more people have started visiting Paris during the off time; most likely, those times will also begin to be crowded. I think people, in general, have forgotten about their manners, respect, and regard for others since the pandemic.

Then I learned about Paris Syndrome. I was experiencing Paris Syndrome without even traveling there. Paris Syndrome is real; I can attest to that, even sitting on my couch. Instead of me trying to explain it, here is one of the articles I read Paris Syndrome.

No, thank you!

This is what made me realize why I never made the trip before, I am not a world traveler, and neither is Marty, even though he traveled to many places and cities around the world with his family as a child. I didn’t want to happen in Paris what happened when we traveled in the past.

Our wonderful trips were trips to Aruba for our honeymoon, Puerto Rico with our friends Daniel and Michael, Montreal with Marty’s brother, Germany, where he has relatives, New York City, which we know like the back of our hands, and Phoenix.

I went to California for three weeks when I worked for Giorgio Armani, but the whole trip was planned for me, and I worked the entire time. I did get to sightsee on my only day off; one of the other employees took me to LA. What a cool city to see through a local’s eyes.

The trips that were total fails for us were to Austria, Amsterdam, East Germany, Boston, and Las Vegas, to name a few. When we get to places alone, we aren’t familiar with; we are like deer in headlights.

We research places to eat, attractions to see, and hotels to stay at; we wander around aimlessly and always feel disappointed or have Paris syndrome with those trips.

I think travel tours and cruises are wonderful for people to see the world. My bio mom has traveled all around the world and loves traveling. I am very envious of her love of travel, but I didn’t get that gene or her slim tall figure. Lol.

She used to travel with her husband, but after his passing, she goes on tours and cruises with her friends; they have amazing times. She has worked hard and spends her money practically to be able to travel. Kudos to her. ♥️

Shortly after, I made my realization about Paris; I found out about the possibility of having severe lung issues. I wasn’t sad if I couldn’t fulfill my fairytale dream because of an illness, which was very telltale about my Paris decision.

I decided to keep Paris as my fairytale dream and not spoil what I have in my head. It’s like watching a bad movie of your favorite book; it ruins what you had previously imagined.

About a month ago, when I was in a deep, dark state of depression, Marty asked me if it was time for me to finally have a little baby girl Frenchie to help with all my heartaches, illness, and loss had I experienced over the last few months.

I don’t write about everything since I don’t want this to be a woe-is-me blog. For instance, I took a horrible fall at 6 am on Easter morning, stepping down from the porch to our driveway. I rolled down the driveway since it is on a hill.

I was holding Nelly and somehow managed to not fall on her. I landed on my right side and did a number on my right arm. The next day, I felt like I was run over by a truck.

Back to Paris, I apologize for getting off track; that’s my Irish storytelling. After being ok about not going to Paris, how fitting it seemed to adopt a Frenchie, I love Frenchies and would freak out whenever I saw one.

There are lots of Frenchiee that go to the Troy Market, and I remember most of their names. I never thought there would be a possibility of having one before; we didn’t want to get any more pets after Klaus since we wanted to travel. Lol.

Well, you all know what happened next…Nelly! The perfect puppy for our family, it feels like she’s always been here and has blended into our lives seamlessly. She is brilliant and learns things quickly.

Nelly and Klaus are in love with each other and are inseparable. Nelly is so much fun for Klaus at this older stage of life. They love playing and resting together outside on warm, sunny days on the couch.

Here is a short video showing how much fun they have together. Klaus is an old softie, and Nelly has brass balls.

I traded my fairytale dream place that would have lasted for a week for a life to be fulfilled right here in Arlington, VT, and travel to places we can drive to and bring Nelly & Klaus along.

Will we ever travel again? Of course, but on vacations, we feel comfortable such as visiting different all-inclusive resorts in the Caribbean or Mexico.

What a relaxing trip it would be to go to a resort where we wouldn’t have to leave if we didn’t want to.

A vacation we don’t have to think about, and the only expectation is beautiful blue-green water, blue skies, sunshine, and which island cocktails to try every day. 🍹

Have you ever had Paris Syndrome on one of your trips somewhere? I doubt we are the only ones. Au Revoir, friends.

New NR-P on the block…

I am so proud of both of my sons, I’ve used the old fashioned saying, “I’m so proud my buttons are popping off,” or something like that.

Sam has been a registered nurse for two years already and has worked on a rescue squad since he is 14. Critical care emergency medicine is his specialty.

Right now, he is 22 years old and working hard on his career while working in the busy Emergency Department at UVM up in Burlington, VT.

The next thing on Sam’s agenda was to become a paramedic. He entered a program called RN to Paramedic course.

He did 6 weeks of online learning on his own time then spent 2 weeks of practical training in Missouri.

He ran with rescue squads not only in Missouri, but Arkansas, Tennessee and on Indian reservations.

Sam told us he learned a lot, met a lot of great people and made friends for life. Who could ask for more in continuing ed?

He was the first one out of 20 to take and pass his written and practical exams. He likes to test right after since he is pumped up and wants to get it over with.

Now when he joins a rescue squad in his new area, he can run as a paramedic as well as when he’s visiting here in Arlington.

Many of the students in his class were taking the class for the same reason as Sam. They all want “fly” and want to be able to work per diem shifts or work full time at a medical flight agency as a nurse or paramedic.

There are many differences between what a nurse and paramedic can do on emergency flights. They can do either which gives them flexibility when picking up shifts.

They all will have to go to flight school before they can practice emergency medicine in the air. Sam said it’s a hard class with only a 50% pass rate the first time you take the exams.

It’s difficult knowing the correct dosages of medications which are different up in a helicopter or airplane. Also, whoever is onboard with the flight team is in a life or death situation.

There is so much important information they will need to learn and train for. He already has the adrenaline, compassion and the ability to stay calm to perform the job well.

I have no doubt he will do it. He doesn’t like to be the center of attention, but I am my kids biggest fan and wanted to share.

Happy Friday! Enjoy your weekend guys!

Doggie treat recipe…

We started puppy classes at our vets last night. Marty and I need to be on the same page regarding adequately training Nelly. Frenchies are stubborn like bulldogs; you’d think they were German. I am married to one for over thirty years. LOL.

The class has ten puppies, most of which are large dog varieties. Nelly may be the smallest puppy in the group, but she was the ring leader. She wasn’t shy and wanted to play with her new friends during the getting-to-know-you time.

The instructor, Jen, told us to bring soft, easy-to-eat treats as they would be using them as a high-value reward. We bought Nelly a package of tiny treats, but she couldn’t eat them fast. That’s when I came up with the idea of making soft little treats for her and hard ones for Klaus.

We are taking everything we know from raising a bulldog along with friends with Frenchies advice and putting them on a seafood-only diet. A seafood diet for these types of dogs is necessary for their skin and allergies.

Klaus has been on a grain-free diet due to his allergies most of his life. Just a little bit can flare up infections in his ears, wrinkles, or feet. I hate being “that guy” that has to say when someone offers him a dog biscuit, “Oh, no, thank you, my dog is on a grain-free diet.” I don’t say gluten-free, like us.

I started reading blogs about homemade doggie treats recipes, seeing millions of ads popping up as I tried to navigate through the blog post to get to the recipe. I never hit the jump to the recipe button; as a fellow writer, I try to give the blogger a chance.

When I finally got to the recipes, they were not just long but included so many useless steps and fussing around. That is why the recipes I write are simple, easy to follow, and no bullshit.

Here is my recipe for soft and hard doggie treats without further ado.

Doggie Treats

Ingredients

1 3/4 Gram, besan or chickpea flour
1/2 cup Natural peanut butter without any sugar, artificial sweeteners, or salt
1/2 cup Canned pumpkin purée NOT pumpkin pie filling

Directions

In a medium bowl, combine the flour, peanut butter, & pumpkin. Mix with your hands until the dough is no longer sticky. Add more flour a little at a time if necessary.

With clean hands, turn the dough onto a floured worktop and knead until smooth. Use more flour if the dough is still sticky while kneading.

Wrap the dough with film and refrigerate for 30 minutes. Preheat the oven to 350 degrees.

Dust your worktop with flour and roll the dough to 1/4-1/2 inch. Cut out shapes, a bench scraper, or a pizza wheel into squares or rectangles. You can reroll your scraps if using cookie cutters.

Lightly spray a sheet pan with pan spray. Place cookies 1/2 inch apart on the sheet pan.

For soft treats, bake for 5 minutes to see if they look baked but soft. Take out of the oven and let cool on the sheet pan.

For hard dog treats, bake for 20-30 minutes, depending on the thickness of your treats. Turn off the oven, leave the treats in the oven with the door closed continue to harden for another 20-30 minutes. This makes them hard without burning the bottom.

Doggie treats can be stored at room temperature. Use an air-tight jar or container for soft treats and one that isn’t air-tight for hard treats.

Back in the kitchen…

I haven’t had the energy or the will to cook or do baking, but today I did! I haven’t cooked a few dishes at once since our dinner party on January 29. Yikes!

Nelly got us up nice and early, at 5 am. My body clock switched when she joined our family. I crash into bed by 9:30 pm at the latest and fall right to sleep. It’s pretty amazing; sleep is so underrated.

I started by writing my own recipe and experimenting with soft training treats and doggie crackers using the same dough. This will be a separate post on Monday.

Next, I made my infamous tomato tart for Easter dinner at our friend’s house. Did I mention this is the first time in 33 years I’ve had to cook Easter Dinner?

Then, I made a classic French fluffy asparagus quiche for Easter breakfast tomorrow morning. OMG! I love fluffy quiche. 

I made seared scallops for dinner with a white sine and lemon pan sauce, risotto, and sautéed asparagus, the leftovers from the quiche. 

It was relaxing having a glass of wine, listening to a dinner party playlist, and slowly and lovingly stirring the risotto. I was taught to always use the same wooden spoon and stir the risotto clockwise.

I’ve been doing that for 25 years, and it always comes out perfect. There are no shortcuts when making risotto, and it’s not something you can rush. This is why risotto is such a popular dish in restaurants.

Dinner was incredible; I realized how much I missed cooking while I was sick. Marty kept saying how good it was. I know he missed my cooking for seven weeks. We threw things together that passed as substance. I was so sick I didn’t give a shit what I ate.

I had all eyes on me while I was prepping at my butcher block kitchen island.

I am feeling better every day. I was pleased with how much I accomplished being home alone with a puppy that is hell on wheels and into everything. Klaus is a good sport and is showing her the ropes. 

Look for my post about my three-ingredient doggie treats recipe that is easy to make. I’ll show you how they came out. I am packaging some for my friend’s dogs. I’ll see tomorrow at Easter dinner.

Someone looks very serious and looks like a cat. Those blue eyes are really something.

This puppy has made me one of those doggie moms I never thought I’d be. Never say never, they say. I finally have a little “girl” in my life; my friend Jon says she will be one lucky dog. He’s right. I can’t wait to pick out some clothes for her when she’s full-size. 🤗

Rebirth…

Klaus spent the afternoon making deliveries and running errands in Dorset & Manchester, VT with me. I’ve got color in my cheeks again and a smile. I had no issues making the deliveries which I couldn’t do last week.

Although this is Easter weekend, this is not a religious post, or have anything to do with Jesus, Rabbi, or Yeshua what I call Him.

This post is about me, and the rebirth I felt overnight after seeing the pulmonologist on Wednesday afternoon.

The pulmonary office had a cancellation, calling me at 8 am asking if I could be there at 2 pm. Wild horses couldn’t stop me.

I didn’t have time to be nervous days before the appointment. My original appointment was in April 26, which was still 3 weeks away.

I saw an older male pulmonologist which I wasn’t sure about the first 10 seconds. Then he spoke to me in a calm, father-like tone. The first thing he did was going over my complete medical history.

It’s really helpful now that I know my family’s medical history on my mother’s side and bits and pieces of my father’s. (Newcomers, I was adopted and speaking of my biological parents.)

I brought him up to date with the whole pneumonia situation and how I’ve noticed I’ve had breathing issues before I became ill such as climbing 2 flights of stairs and while performing at the 2 gigs at last year.

It all makes sense now. He showed me the three X-rays and cat scan, explaining everything he saw. This scarring happened before I had pneumonia he strongly surmised.

The doctor spent an hour with me, easing my worst thoughts. This wasn’t as bad as I thought.

The pulmonologist suspected the scarring in my lungs was most likely caused by the drug Humira I’ve been injecting for 5 years. He told me not to go back on it.

At the end of my appointment, the doctor prescribed a course of prednisone and a different inhaler to be used mornings & evenings.

Marty purchased me a device to blow into that creates oscillating positive pressure, in your airways and clears away mucus and improves your breathing.

In 6 weeks, I’ll have another cat scan to see if my lungs are improving. If not, I’ll be referred to a specialist at Dartmouth Hitchcock where my gastroenterologist is.

The pulmonologist can’t say for sure if this is only scarring even though that’s what he is thinking. He told me to keep in mind there is a possibility it could be pulmonary fibrosis.

The doctor was very nice made me feel comfortable. He gave me hope and told me not to worry so much. He also told me that I looked good and healthy.

Marty was relieved when I told him about my appointment. He told me, this is the turning point, you’re going to be fine and back to my normal self in no time.

I got a great nights sleep and woke up feeling different. A huge, heavy weight was lifted off my shoulders. I felt alive and had energy. I wasn’t consumed with worry and doubt.

I was so crippled with anxiety and fear it was as if they were holding my body in a straight jacket; that jacket is now removed and I am starting to feel like myself again. It’s amazing what the mind can do.

I realized upon waking, this was a rebirth for me in no uncertain terms. This was the turning point Marty spoke of.

Rebirth

See definition of rebirth on Dictionary.com

• noun revival or resurrection

SYNONYMS FOR Rebirth

comeback

recovery

rehabilitation

rejuvenation

renaissance

renewal

restoration

revival

I woke up today feeling like no one could stop me now. I felt happy, alive and energized.

Today, I feel like a Phoenix rising out from the ashes, leaving all the hurt, loss and sickness behind.

The magnificent full moon at 6 am, it was large and bright. The camera on my phone captured a ring around the moon that looks like rainbow colors.

Finally, thank you Yeshua for your sacrifice and resurrection. Have a wonderful Easter and Passover everyone.

For the first time in 33 years I am not cooking Easter dinner, we were invited to a friends house.

I’m bringing my signature dish, Tomato tart. Here is the link to the recipe to check out.

It’s Friday again. Cheers, I’ll catch up with you soon. 🐣

Breakfast…

Cannoli Pancakes

I love Sunday mornings. It’s the one day we truly take off and relax. We also love making Sunday breakfast. The best part of Sunday breakfast is eating it at 9 or 10 am instead of our early weekday gulp-and-grab breakfast before spätzle production.

I loved Sunday mornings when I was growing up. I remember getting breakfast supplies on Saturday afternoons or evenings when we lived in Elizabeth, NJ. We lived there until I was almost ten years old.

Great Grandma in her dining room. The table always had silverware and plates on it since there was always food in the kitchen for guests.

I loved visiting my great-grandma’s house on Saturday nights. My Mema and the rest of my father’s family gathered there. They played music and sat around her long dining room table, smoking and talking. Not my great grandma and Mema, but my parents and my father’s cousins, Aunts, and Uncles.

That’s me telling a story in Great Grandma’s dining room.

I was in my glory when they played Italian music, and my great-uncles would play the spoons. I would dance with my cousins, run around and let great grandma feed us hotdog buttons she had in her housecoat pocket. Don’t be grossed out; her hanky was in the other pocket. Lol.

In Great Grandma’s parlor, I guess on a rainy day.

We would leave when it was dark out. It always felt late, but I loved being out at night. Seeing all the lights in the windows looked cozy and magical. I would look out my backseat window at the street lights lining the streets.

We would drive to a bagel shop and pick up fresh-out-of-the-oven bagels in different flavors; my favorite was egg. My dad would hand me the bag to hold. It was warm in my lap and smelled delicious.

Next, we drove down one of Elizabeth’s main streets and stopped under a bridge at a red light. I would start getting nervous when I realized where we were going.

There was an old man who stood under the bridge. He sold the Sunday papers early. I remember he had one of those coin thingies on his belt.

My dad would roll down the driver’s side window and hand the man a dollar bill. He would give my dad the paper hot off the presses and his change.

I honestly thought this man was a troll. He was little and hunched over. He wore a black sailor’s knit cap and wore black gloves with no fingers. He had a voice like he drank nails, and while I was intrigued, I was afraid of him. I can still see him in my mind’s eye.

On Saturday afternoons, my mother and I would pick up my other grandmother, Nana. My Grandpop was buried at Mount Olive Cemetary in Newark, NJ. It was located next to the Anheuser Bush plant. The plant had a light-up eagle that flew in the sky, or so it appeared.

On our way to the cemetery, we would make two stops; the first was a florist shop to get flowers for Grandpop’s grave. He always had a flag on his grave since he served in World War l.

Me with Nana and Grandpop in Warinanco Park in Elizabeth.

The second stop was Zimmerman’s bakery. It was a wholesale bakery with a door where people could go in and buy freshly baked bread. I can still smell that heavenly scent that filled the air.

After we picked out a colossal rye bread, I loved watching a burly-looking woman dressed in all white with a hairnet put the oval loaf into the slicing machine.

Next, the lady put it in a white waxed paper bag, my mom paid for it, and I carried it out to the car like a baby in my arms. Like the bagels, it was warm and smelled mouth-wateringly delicious.

That big loaf of bread would be divided, giving Nana a few slices, and the rest would be for Sunday breakfast which my dad would make, slathered with lots of butter and dippy eggs.

Holy shit! Until I found this sign, I thought the name of the cemetery was St. Olive, as I wrote. I didn’t change it, I like it as I remember it in my head.

At the cemetery, I would take the metal vase out of the ground at Grandpop’s grave and fill it with water from a nearby water spigot giving the flowers we brought a drink. Nana would sob at his gravesite, and seeing her cry upset me. I would hold her hand and tell her it was ok.

After we left the cemetery, we would all eat slices of Zimmerman’s rye bread. I love the heel and would put it in front of my teeth and pretend they were false teeth like Nana’s. I was in the backseat, so my mother couldn’t see me and yell at me for playing with my food.

In front of Nana & Grandpop’s apartments on Easter in 1968.

On many of those Saturdays, I stayed at Nana’s house. My mother, who used to clean Nan’s apartment since she was blind, decided I was old enough to clean Nana’s apartment while I was there.

This was long before my role as Cinderella began when we moved from Elizabeth to Iselin. I didn’t mind; I would clean and talk to Nana the whole time. One week Nana told me she lost her mother’s ring in the apartment.

While scrubbing her toilet, at 6 or 7 years old, I found her ring on the rim of the toilet bowl when I lifted the seat. I yelled, “Nana! I found your ring!” Nana cried and hugged me.

Nana’s ring that I found. I took it out today, and I am wearing it. It spins around on my finger as it did on hers.

She gave me that ring when I was older, telling me I deserved to have it more than anyone. I never told my mother she gave it to me; she would have taken it away in a fit of rage one day. I keep it locked up in a safe. It is platinum and has tiny little diamond chips in it.

After cleaning, I would lead Nana into the elevator and go downstairs to take her to mass in her building. Afterward, I walked her carefully to the corner store around the block. I was very careful and walked slow. I would tell her when there was a step or crack in the sidewalk.

When I think about it now, that was a little crazy for us to do since Elizabeth was a dangerous place to live even back then. I was responsible for my age, and she trusted me more than anyone she told me.

The corner store had a yucky smell and wood shavings on the floor. I held my breath when we went in there but had to gasp for air and get a big whiff. I knew it was impolite to hold my nose, plus I had to walk Nana through the narrow aisles with her shopping cart she brought from home.

Even though I was only 6 or 7 years old, she would talk me through making dinner for us—simple things like Spam, grilled cheese, tuna, or egg salad sandwiches. I liked standing on a step stool and cooking on her electric stove. I set the table, she washed the dishes, and I would dry.

Anheuser Bush Plant and the eagle that lights up at night.

At bedtime, we would look out her 8th-floor apartment window, wave to the Anheuser eagle, and say, “Good night, Grandpop.” Nana would cry. She missed him so much. I slept on his side of the bed and told her it was ok. We would say the rosary in the dark; I would fall asleep after the first round of Hail Marys.

These are special memories for me and my time with my Nana. Writing about them made me cry since I miss her and our relationship. My mother was jealous of our relationship, so I never told her anything we did.

The same thing went for the games Mema played with me and that she rubbed my back when I was falling asleep. One night I asked my mother if she would rub my back like Mema. Mistake. She yelled at my dad to have a talk with his mother and stop doing that. What a bitch!

This is me with Mema, Pa, my father, and my mother. I wonder why Pa is the only one smiling?

Come to find out, Nana was merely a babysitter to my mother, just like Mema, on Saturday nights. The joke was on her since I loved spending the night at their homes. I kept them company; they treated me with respect, love and made me feel special.

Nana, Mema, and Great Grandma in their older, thinner years. Nana continued wearing her glasses until the end, even though she couldn’t see from them since 1970.

Our boys didn’t get the chance to have any special Saturday night memories like mine, but we always had Sunday breakfast together. We rarely went out for breakfast; I would make something special every Sunday.

I hope Noah and Sam remember some of that now that they are older. If luck is in my favor, I can do the same for my grandchildren someday and let them have a sleepover with us.

This morning I made Marty and me cannoli pancakes that were delicious. I started with chocolate chip pancakes. I used dark chocolate because I didn’t want them to be too sweet. Marty prefers semi-sweet chocolate, but tough shit, I told him. 😜

I made a whipped topping with whipping cream, ricotta cheese, and a touch of sugar. I topped the pancakes with warm maple syrup, ricotta whipped cream, and chopped pistachios.

I am always adding dishes to the menu in my made-up restaurant called, “Six and under.” This would make the menu, but Marty pointed out that people would prefer semi-sweet chocolate chips. You all know me well enough by now to imagine what I replied.

Thanks for going down my breakfast memories path with me. I hope you enjoyed the photos I dug out. Lol. Have a great rest of your Sunday and upcoming week.

Bell peppers…

We live in a world that is hard for many people to understand. They don’t get the whole they/them pronouns or know what non-binary even means. 

While it makes perfect sense to many, it’s harder for some people to understand. Now that I know people who identify as something different, I do my best to use the pronoun of their choice. It was hard to do at; first, I have to admit. It was harder for Marty, so he stopped using pronouns altogether.

Five years ago, I had no idea about any of things either. Marty and I get it now and know many people who identify as such, especially at the farmers market. This post wasn’t meant to be about people; it was supposed to be about bell peppers. 

The way I always described bell peppers to my culinary kids at school and adults in my cooking class is now incorrect. 

Bell peppers were once easily identified as male and female. Peppers with 2-3 bumps or lobes on the bottom were males, and peppers with four or more were females. Boom.

There is a difference between the two varieties of peppers. Male peppers are more bitter and are better for cooking, while female bell peppers have a sweeter taste and are better for eating raw.

Male and female bell peppers affect the taste and color of the bell peppers. Male or female green peppers are still more bitter than red or yellow varieties. This being said female green peppers are still sweeter than males. Confusing right? 

The confusing part for me is bell peppers are no longer identified as male and female. They are gender-neutral, a term we hear or read about every day. I needed to read a bunch of scientistic and farming articles to try to figure out what in fucks name it all meant. 

The information I read implies there is no such thing as male and female peppers. Basically, it comes down to seeds, flowers, pollination, and the fruit itself. I am probably not good at science because my right-handed brain just doesn’t understand it. This is perhaps why someone used laymen’s terminology for dumb or creative people like me.

As I mentioned, peppers are a fruit since the peppers contain seeds. That I already knew, by the way, tomatoes are also a fruit. This used to surprise my students. This hasn’t changed. Furthermore, “female” peppers have more seeds than “males” and grow baby peppers.

Fact-checkers are making sure people realize this terminology mistake and have claimed there is no difference in gender. It never used to be a big deal; no one gave two shits about it before. See how this is hard for me to understand?

In closing, what does this all mean? It means people can identify as whatever they want. They should try to be patient and not be offended by people still trying to wrap their heads around it all and try understand it.

Regarding bell peppers, if you want a good cooking pepper, choose ones with 2-3 bumps. If you want a bell pepper to put in salads, on a dip platter, or to snack on, pick ones with four or more bumps. As far as the color goes, that is left up to you and how sweet you like your peppers.

At the end of the day, the gender and color of the peppers doest matter; they are all bell peppers. Period. Just like people. Period. That I wish everyone could understand.

Ok, I didn’t expect this new information about bell peppers after I spoke about them with our friends David and Arthur last week when they came over on taco night.

It was interesting doing the research for this piece. Before I knew it, the writer in me couldn’t help making the connection between bell peppers and people in today’s world.

By the way, while editing this piece, the grammar program I use had a big issue with using the word layman and scolded me because I was insensitive. I guess the politically correct term is a layperson.

I didn’t change it, just like I don’t change the curse words I use on a regular basis. That’s why this blog is about how I live my life.

While I try to be sensitive to people, I am trying the best I can; however, I can’t worry 24/7 about offending people with every word I say or write.

I am already a nut job; doing so would make me even more fucked up. In some cases, I have to do me, and you do you. Thanks for your understanding and support. Support can be beautiful. 😜

I hope you find the information useful and the next time you are at a supermarket or farm stand, you think of me. If you ever need a bell pepper recipe, hit me up. Have a great day!

Cleaning 2.0…

Our house is usually tidy, especially since we decluttered many things and went for a simple design with clean lines. 

Don’t get me wrong, when we were super busy with the business, and I was sick, there was shit everywhere. I was so ill I didn’t care, which is unlike me.

Even when I think my house is a wreck, people who stop by think our house is clean. I guess it’s different perspectives and expectations. Mine are very high since I am a total asshole perfectionist.

The last time I gave the place a top-to-bottom cleaning was at the end of January when we hosted a dinner party for our friends. A week before, I became ill. 

Last week, in the production kitchen, I learned I could not be in the kitchen when it’s being disinfected with bleach spray and sanitized. 

We tried using a bucket with bleach and water, but that made me cough my head off, and my airway felt raw. I needed to use my emergency inhaler to catch my breath from coughing. 

Marty has taken over the production kitchen disinfection and sanitizing; however, on Friday, I returned to the kitchen with a towel over my face to get something, and I coughed until Sunday. This is a serious problem.

I love cleaning and washing whites with bleach. When Noah was small, someone said he was so clean he smelled like bleach. I was proud sick then, but now I think I was a complete whack job.

I shudder thinking he breathed in bleach every day. Up until last week, bleach meant clean to me. How else could I get his onesies, socks, and white shoelaces sparkling clean? Ugh! 😑 

Even my favorite orange furniture oil contains fragrance allergens. I will have to pick up old-fashioned lemon oil and use that instead.

After we realized I couldn’t do the final cleaning in the kitchen anymore, I knew I had to change all the chemicals I used to clean our house and laundry. I had to replace everything literally! 

Marty went to Hannaford Supermarket and picked up the line of Method cleaning products. I already used some, and they worked fantastically. The shower spray shocked me with how well it cleaned the white shower tiles. I sprayed it on and didn’t rinse it off as the bottle said.

I switched to free and clear laundry pods and ordered new shampoo, conditioner, and detangler for my hair. I already use an all-natural goat’s milk soap I get from my friend Joanne, a fellow vendor at the farmers market. Joanne’s soaps smell great and last 4-6 months.

I don’t have an appointment with my new pulmonologist until April 26th. I don’t know how bad my pulmonary fibrosis is. I am taking it very seriously if I am going to fight this fucker and live a long life. 

Tomorrow isn’t promised to anyone, but I am living a little to no chemicals life, eating healthier, even healthier than I am already.

I also started moving more; Nelly was the perfect answer to the moving more part. I can’t wait to go for walks with the dogs when she gets a little bigger.

The title of this blog post is called, Cleaning 2.0 since I have to change the way I clean with different products

Even if you think your home is clean, it’s not a new baby, puppy, or kitten clean. Holy shit, there were more hidden dust bunnies, electrical wires, and all kinds of shit she could chew on, eat, or pull over. 

Today, when Klaus and Marty, were out making deliveries in NY. I found an old baby gate and blocked Nelly in our back room. She needs constant supervision, and this was the best place for her.

While I was upstairs cleaning, I suddenly heard a bunch of noises. I went downstairs to check on her; she got tired of playing with her toys and hiding out in her bunker, also known as the loveseat. She knocked over or pulled down everything she could reach. Nosey Nelly!

I decided at that moment It was snuggle time. Nelly laid in the same spot behind my legs where Otto used to when we snuggled. It made me feel good; instead of making me cry because I missed him so much.

I am covered in dog hair after cleaning up all the dust bunnies.

Klausie boy isn’t a snuggler, so I am glad Nelly is. Today, I felt connected to Otto through Nelly; it was a beautiful, peaceful feeling.

I am happy to report I am going back to belly dance tomorrow night while Marty holds down the fort in puppy land. I’ve missed it so much and the lovely women I dance with.

Have a good night and a wonderful Wednesday.