Besides not making noteworthy meals, I haven’t been in the gym for at least 2 weeks. In my own defense to myself, I really can’t work out with a terrible headache or being exhausted; that’s when I hurt myself. I’ve listened to my body and took a break after almost 6 months of dedication.
It would have been so easy not to go back to working out; I would be the only one to really notice since no one has noticed any improvement after months of working out. Marty can see the difference, but that doesn’t count. On the bright side, all of my summer clothes that I tried on a couple of weeks ago fit and looked better. That was proof in the pudding what I was doing was working, after all.
I went back to weight lifting back in October to get my strength back and feel better mentally and physically, which have been accomplished. I didn’t go back with a big goal or to drop a lot of weight, but to prove I could be strong again and have more stamina.
I decided yesterday that I am not giving up. Maybe no one notices because I wasn’t as disgusting as I thought I looked or felt. Maybe I was so disgusting that people are afraid of offending me by telling me I look better? With all of these thoughts running through my head, I know I have to go back, not for people to notice, but for me.
It’s so hard to stay dedicated to working out, especially when life is busy. It’s so easy to make excuses when life is busy. Whether I work out or not, it doesn’t affect anyone but me. I don’t have to convince anyone but myself to keep at it. If I give up now, I will never realistically be “back in shape.” When I say back in shape, I don’t mean the shape I was in 20 years ago, but the best shape I can be in now…at 55.
I got back in the gym and picked up right where I left off. I used the same weight amounts that I worked up to over the last few months and completed all the sets and repetitions. I worked out to death metal to get me pumped up. It worked! My time in the gym was pleasurable and successful. I walked down the stairs of our barn, feeling pretty proud of myself for not giving up. ☺️
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